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16 Aug 2004|02:14pm |
saturday wasn't a good day.i was mad the whole day but i got to light up.i felt like i never smoked in my life ever but yeahhhh it was a boring day.i swear i feel like shyt now.ugh i swear i wana kill that DUMB BITCH so badly.
yesterday was bad too but at the end was romantic day ever.i'll never forget that day in my life even though i was tearing about something that shouldn't haev happened.this whole drama so stressful.i real need to get out of here badly.
i'm so sad and mad!
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16 Aug 2004|02:14pm |
on the days i wanted to.
just came back i got a tan but it was so boring at Orlando, Florida.i got pictures but i'm not in them just my family.i have a few other pics of me you know!?!? ha ha ha i was bored.things are okay just pissed off at a few things and people (ya know who the fuck ya are)
friday i was guna go to Brooklyn with Diana but she couldn't because it was late and i couldn't because i didn't have money and my mom wasn't home.we might chyll tomorrow and shyt i don't know but i need to see my boyfriend to se what's up and stuff like that.
i'm trying to get tickets to go to the show (Taking Back Sunday,Atreyu,Funeral for your friend n Like yesterday).i might go get them on monday or sometimes next week.i told my mom and she said shes going to take me.i might get my boyfriend tickets too.it would be awesome if he came *crosses fingers*
"its amazing what youll find when you just open your eyes
sometimes love can leave you blind
but still you try to cover all the lies and ignore all the signs
sometimes love can leave you blind"
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27 Jul 2004|08:17pm |
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i'm so happy i finished my Migente page.it looks so pretty alll i need is a background so yeah i'm going to find one.
yestaday was so fucking horrible but at the same time fucking funny as fuck.i got so fucked up without my boyfriend for the first time and i smoked with Limpy,Mimi,David (Sammie's cousin),Tone and Smiley.oh god we played Chicago.i couldn't play because i lost and i almost died i was choking like crazy.David was good at it he knows how to do it.i didn't want to stop but i had to because i had to be at home like 30 mins later and i got a ride from Limpy's brother.hes cool.we were chyllen at Sammie block really.its so scary.yupp so yeah i was talking to Mimi so much drama.oh god i hated that night but for the first time i didn't do shyt.i let it go because i know it ain't going to happen what i want to happen.so yeah but things are alright but i don't know it hurts like hell.oh god but whatever man i'm so fucking hurting and i just can't stop crying.see i could nver have a day day or week because like it fucks up and thats another reason why i don't like to write everything great and shyt because its bullshyt
today i went to see him and wutever just started to cry over shyt wuteva man
yeah another thing BITCHES FUCK OFF!
i need to sleep son i havent sleep for like a good min lately
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26 Jul 2004|12:20am |
weekend GREAT oh god i <33 it so much.i slept with my boyfriend at his house all weekend.it was great just waking up with him and coming to his house so early and coming home like 11ish or 12ish.
my cousin called me today to go to the pool but i didn't go but something had to ruin the plans to go in the pool.so yeah i'm sorry babez i'll go next time promise.
today i was just sleeping basically all day with my baby!
i was clean this weekend.
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| <33 Roses and Smoking |
12 Jul 2004|11:40pm |
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today wasn't bad at all.my boyfriend made my birthday the best birthday ever!!!!1...it was raining so hard and fast.20 piece (left the jar with my boyfriend i wanted to keep it because it had a butterfly on it.it was cute) drove around my boyfriend brought me roses,tear bear,and balloons.it was so cute. <33 him so much.i don't know what i would do without him.
tomorrow i'm going to get my tongue pierced and tattoo done.i have to talk to my dad thou hopefully he lets me...i'm getting it on my lower back above my ass.its going to be big and nice.i'll take pics of it when i get it.
saturday i'm making up my day for my birthday so if any wants to come to the movies with me your more than welcomed.
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10 Jul 2004|01:45am |
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today wasn't that bad.a few things got me mad and whatever but oh well what could i do (yes i know what you thinking) *even though you don't know my problems* hehehehehe i'm an ass but anyways i went to see AnchorMan...that movie is wack and its funny but it was wack...i didn't like it.i wanted to see dodgeball.i heard that movie is so funny.so yeah i guess.a few people went like the usual.
i got home like a fucking hour ago and my mom gets mad and another thing my brother came home like a few minutes later...funny how she gets mad at fucking everything but i could care less because she had said a few things to me (i could come home whenever,she don't give a fuck) I"M FREE!!!! FUCKING FINALLY
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| theses are my confession |
30 May 2004|12:02pm |
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Friday - its was fucking raining outside.its kinda depressing me so much.today is my anniversary.its 1 year already.i never felt this way like its just a good feeling (great feeling) but that the same time wierd.i'm speechless.just put it that way.
hmm.....i woke up so late it aint even funny.i'm such a sleepy head kinda even thou i hardly sleep or anything.i've been sleeping lately.so you could say sleepyhead.
i'm so speechless today.i have nothing to say.just that i feel funny and not that good.like its a bad feeling.one of the worst in my life.i'm just over it now not liek before.its all great now!!!
Saturday - i guess everything okay.i'm not sure how like i'm feeling towards something that happened.i'm type hurt but like feel i don't know how to say it or xplain it.but hope things change.
woke up.cleaned my house and somewhat just thinking all day.kk just went and took the bus to the square and just chylled wit my hubby.yes i love chyllen with him.funny feeling i get when i'm with him.bets ever.we almost fell asleep on each other again.then like there was a party in the back so we went and wuteva.chylled with some people i know.and just came home.like an hour ago and now i'm dying my hair again for like the 1567864654x.well i'm done here have to take a shower now becuz its time to wash my hair.buh-bye homies.xox 1
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14 May 2004|04:11pm |
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i aint go to school yestaday because i went shopping instead at New Jersey at The Outlets.it was so fucking hott over there and today.oh my god...i was dieing.i had to walk for so fucking long.my feet was killing me.this week been going good so far.im so HAPPY.tomorrow already friday good this week been going by so fast.thats good for me.i chylled with my hubby today again rite afta i came home from the mall.we went to the park wit jt,smiley,diana,hubby,me,jon,calvien,mike,rob,and bucci.they played basketball only some of them but otha sat down because they lazy like that.im type hyper.i feel like something stuck in my stomach.i don't know why but i hate the feeling.
i'm not sure what i'm going to do tomorrow all i know is that im getting picked up by my hubby at 4ish and that i don't know what to do tomorrow.i thought i was going to chyll with Isis but i'm not sure yet.i have to call her tomorrow to see what shes doing tomorrow.
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| i got locked up.they wont let me out |
25 Apr 2004|12:18pm |
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yestaday was fun and funny.first Brittany came over my house and it took foreva.then later we went to go get my hair done i saw my cousin (isis n laura) then went to Berto's house so i met with my boyfriend there Olivia,Stephaine,Tommy, and E was there.then they came so like a few pplz was there.then we went to smoke in the basement and we had to be so quite there becuz Berto's mom was home and we kept hearin sumone comin down and we had to get the fuck out.i noticed that we smoke a 50 piece.i was like w0w.i smoked so much i neva smoked so much.it was fun.oh god that just made my day.then we went to bertos room.i was just layin down on his bed n my hubby was wit me.so we had to leave becuz his mom was i duno i forgot we took sum of his food.i ate a bagel wit cheese.LMAO so everyone slipt up kinda and we met up at Lincoln high school.it was jt,mago,salo,me,brttany,bucci,mike,chi,smiley,oliva,stephaine,tommy i think thats it.bucci and mike they ran the track and Bucci won.yay!!!!!! bucci that nite hook up wit my frien brittany.i was happy becuz she was goin through mad shyt rite now.so its all good.it was fuckin cold outside.i was freezin my ass off.so then later we went to berto's house again met up wit uly and just went to his basment and chylled there.they smoked again becuz they found the blunt on the floor becuz when berto's mom was comin they throw it and then they found it.i was chyllen on the bed wit jon,jt and mago.i finally saw wit happened wit jt.i feel dum bad.then we left like around 11 and the fuckin cab was being dum gay.i called so many of them.i took a cab with uly,mike,me and brittany.the cab was type fun.got home like around 12ish.i was happy.hehh and that was my nite.good one rite. im out later nIgGaHsS
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12 Apr 2004|08:14pm |
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dead poetic // tell myself goodbye |
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my mom is PMS-ing.oh god i can't stand her when shes like this becuz like she pisses me off.shes like yellin at me for no reason when shes mad at my bro or anyone shes takes it out on me for no reason.kinda reminds me of me but i been stopped that.i'm goin to kick myself out of my house becuz i don't want to be here.ima go chyll at my aunt's house for tonite and come home tomorrow.
the party on saturday was okay it wasn't that bad.i wasn't in the mood at all i was just like fuck it.so like i left early thx to my mom and like wuteva.i was so pissed off.and like i'm even more pissed off becuz he told me sumthings.i was like wuteva fuck it theres nothing i could do about it its just the way he is.
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| Sir Speedy makes me horny |
12 Apr 2004|12:57pm |
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sir speedy // mi voz |
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i'm sick.blah.i'm going to make myself even more sicker. ha!!!!!!!
i went to sleep so late yestaday.i was on the phone with my boyfriend really late.i don't remember what time i fell asleep on the phone with him.around 4 in the morning i called him back becuz i felt bad that i fell asleep on the phone and hes like "we both fell asleep" then i asked him when i called did i wake him up and he said "yeah" i feel so bad i was like "awww swwie".
i just woke up two hours ago.i so sleepy but i just need to see if i could go out today and go and see him.i asked my mom but she said i have to ask my dad.i don't know what hes guna say but i hope he says "yes!!!"
for some reason i want to dance and go clubbin man.it sucks when your fuckin parents runs your fuckin life.
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| i hate crying |
11 Apr 2004|06:41pm |
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| fO sHiZzEl |
09 Apr 2004|11:41pm |
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i need to stop cutting school NiGgGah!! you bugging....cHeCk YoUrSeLf (%#%$^$%)
FuN fUn FuN week so far crazy too also saddish.hmmm like things i been thinking about things.my babYy i miss him even thou we chylled pretty much all day.woke up with him this morning and like just chylled.hehh i feel <333
tomorrow is guna be crazy bio!!!!
slept over my cousin house (![[info]](http://piktures.deadjournal.com/userinfo.gif) lickmykitty) it was type good i wasn't in that badish of a mood.
I CAN"T DESCRIBE MY WEEK oh gawsh!!!!!
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03 Apr 2004|11:52am |
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dead poetic // bliss tearing eyes |
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This week was just plain crazy.so much mixed feeling.its just to hard to explain.
Monday
[x]I didn't go to school becuz i was just feeling like shyt.i just slept all day becuz i haven't gotten enough sleep lately.
Tuesday
[x]I didn't go to school either and u know "why".i came home went to therapy and then i went to the galleria brought me stuff but not a lot.i'm doing that this week.my mom said "she going to take me to teh mall".
Wednesday
[x]All i did was just chylled and fell asleep in some of my classes.
Thursday
[x]I got locked outside my Grandmother house becuz no one was there for they could open the door.So i just called Brittany and asked her where she was at and she said "shes up the hill from where i lived". good thing i had my cell phone with me and shyt.
yestaday
[x]Came home early had a half a day.like around 5:30 went out with my babyyyy.smoked that day with them.came home like around 6 something.i feel asleep on my couch.then like he called and woke me up and we just stood on the phone and talked and shyt.
Pretty much everything is all okay.i wouldn't want to regret anything about it.i <3 my LIFE.
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28 Mar 2004|09:49pm |
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i haven't written in here for a long long long long long long long long time.i need help with my journal.need to fix it.its boring me.same shit i see all the times.
[promise to my journal]
[x]i promise to write in here all the times.
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